Who needs a hug? 🤗 ME

I don't know. I just felt that I need a hug to calm me, to get myself back, to wake up and go on with my every day, positively. The past weeks have been so stressful and tiring. I don’t know the problem and why I feel this way. I just feel something is wrong. I feel that vibe that "I want to be happy, where I can be happy? What can make me happy?".

We ended up eating a lot. With all the burgers, fries, ice cream, Starbucks and milk tea, but it seems not to be enough. That there is still something missing in it.

And its different when you are alone. The emptiness and loneliness is more felt. You are alone in your room. You don't have anyone to talk to. And you don't know if anyone is really caring for you.

I just need a hug. The one that is long and warm. I just want to feel that I am loved. To feel that somebody is comforting and caring for me. And that everything will be okay. 😔

xoxo

Jayz

Gusto

May gusto akong sabihin,
isang bagay na hindi ko maamin.
Tila yata may kakaiba sa ihip ng hangin.
May kaba akong nadarama,
pintig ng puso ko'y may ibang kinakanta.

Bakit ganito?
Tila humihinto ang paligid ko.
Parang eksena sa pelikula kapag nagkatinginan na.
Paano ba ito?
Nahuhulog na ata ako.

Gusto kong tumakbo at kalimutan ang nararamdamang ito.
Gusto kong umiwas ng hindi tuluyang mahulog.
Gusto kong magpakalayo layo.
Gusto kong magtago at tuluyan ng sumuko.

Dahil sa dulo, alam kong masasaktan lang ako.
Dahil hanggang tingin lang kita sa malayo.
Isang tagahanga na may lihim na pagtingin.
At alam kong hindi mo ako mapapansin.

Gusto kita..
Gusto kita ngunit wag nalang muna..
Cguro, sa susunod na pagkakataon nalang
pag kaya ko ng maging matapang.

09.05.19

Moon Love 🌜

Moon Love 🌚

Painted  this 08/02/19

She held the moon  the way

she held her own heart,

as if it was the only light

that could guide her through the darkest nights.

- Chrissie Pinney